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LOVE HURTS
Xena Torres
ruffell@home.com

A kiss.
I watch that kiss, while it rips my heart.
Who would have thought that a single kiss,
Could tear this friendship apart.
Now she will go be with her man,
For she has become his bride.
She will find new adventures,
Without me by her side.
She will travel with her love,
But I must continue to atone.
My friend, so like a sister,
Has left me all alone.
She turns to me to say farewell,
But I donít want it said.
I tell her we will meet again,
Yet doubts swim in my head.
As I hold her close, she holds me too,
And I try my best not to cry.
We stay like that for ages,
Until I kiss my bard good-bye.

 

BLONDE DEMON
Xena Torres
ruffell@home.com

That witch.
Gods, I shake whenever I see blonde hair.
I think itís her, although I know sheís gone.
I know Xena fears her too,
But ever since the witch killed my beloved,
I havenít helped Xena anymore.
Sheís so strong.
I hope that she can last while I heal.
I know that when she killed Callisto,
She couldnít sleep.
Callisto is what she used to be.
Created the same way as Xena was,
Destroyed by a warlordís obsession.
I can understand Callistoís hurt and rage.
I felt the same things when she killed my love,
Sweet, gentle Perdicus.
But Callisto was consumed with her hatred,
More than I,
And deeper than Xena.
I know Xena wishes,
That she could have changed Callistoís heart.
I watch Xena some nights,
And see the hurt in her eyes.
I wish there was something I could do,
But I am still trapped in my own pain.
Looks like Callisto won after all.

 

LOST HOPE
Xena Torres
ruffell@home.com

Blind!
By the Gods, Iím blind!
What am I to do?
I know the cure,
Yet I only have a day to do it.
But how can I?
Youíve been kidnapped,
And if I take too long, youíll die!
Some evil men are about to kill you,
So I have to press on.
I donít have time to do both,
So I must sacrifice for you.
How can I fight without my eyes?
How can I help you?
Iím afraid,
Although Iíll never admit it out loud.
I donít know if Iíll see again,
And I donít know if I can save you.
Thank the Gods I did!
Now youíre safe and in my arms.
I have you back, but I am still blind.
This is the end of the Warrior Princess.
I canít fight when Iím blind, Gabrielle.
Itís over, all over,
But at least I have you back!

 

THEN AND NOW
Xena Torres
ruffell@home.com

Everything changes.
I understand this line.
I do because no has a life,
That teaches this more than mine.
I used to be like any other girl.
I lived in a village, in a happy home.
With my mother, father and brothers,
And a friend to call my own.
Then on day, my father left,
And it crushed my foolish heart.
I never thought that I would hurt like that,
So it started what tore my life apart.
My peaceful village was attacked,
By men in silver death masks.
They came again and again,
To finish up their tasks.
I lead an army against them.
We won the battle and sent them back.
However, my life was still ruined,
When my young brother was killed in this act.
My heart filled up with rage,
So I decided to take my army all the way,
To terrorize the world,
So everyone would pay.
This went on for many long years,
Until my latest army went astray.
My Commander stole them from me,
And forced me away.
Yet no warrior can leave an army,
Before they run the Gauntlet of death.
The Gauntlet.
That name can freeze even my breath.
So, I was sent through the Gauntlet,
My old men, beating me within an inch of my life.
I pulled myself across the line,
But I collapsed from the sharp pains, like a knife.
It came as no surprise,
Every man forced through the Gauntlet, did die.
So they werenít shocked when I fell,
But no man am I.
As they turned away, I rose to my feet.
Good had taken root in my soul.
I had a new purpose, it was clear,
To fight for the weak and make evil pay the toll.
I joined Hercules, the demi-god of good.
He taught me things and I listened, for he is smart.
He showed me how to lead my life,
And he unchained my heart.
My life is better now, I know.
It changed again,
But now itís good,
And I have a new friend.
Her name is Gabrielle.
Sheís so innocent, so pure.
Weíll be friends forever,
This I know for sure.
She calms my rages,
And keeps me good.
She teaches me to feel,
And makes me understood.
Now I am a hero,
And although I donít seem the type,
Iíll fight for good forever,
Because I know that this is right.
So whoever choose my destiny,
I no longer scone you.
For although you brought me much pain,
Youíve made a hero true.

 

DARK WARRIOR
Xena Torres
ruffell@home.com

Who is that evil warrior?
She looks like Xena,
Sounds like Xena,
But sheís not the Xena I know.
Could this be?
Is it her dark side again?
I know it is.
What am I suppose to do?
she axed a man in the back,
Sheís letting men die.
Iíve never seen her like this.
This is worse then those times,
When it was all Aresí fault.
Could this be him as well?
No, itís her past.
That cold, unfeeling monster.
Sheís fought this army before,
And she was bottled up with rage.
I understand.
The only way to bring her back,
Is to make her see.
If I must die to save her,
Then I will.
I run into the battle field,
To bring water to the dying.
The enemy thinks Iím calling a truce.
The wounded are retrieved.
Xena runs to me, and yells,
Asking, what I thought I was doing,
But I run off, seeing a wounded friend.
I look at Xena, sneer on my face,
(Because I have to make her see)
And I must say words that will sting her.
So she opens up her eyes.
"Looks like you got your fight to the death."
And I turn and walk away.
Later, food and nurses are sent,
Back to the hospital from the war.
I smile.
Xenaís herself again.
I was so scared for a time.
Xena came in to see me that night,
And she apologized for what she did.
"I let my fear and
Anger blind me to everything."
I told her that the past can do that
And if I had been through what she had-
"No. No, you understand fear and hatred,
But youíve never given into it.
You donít know how much I love, that."
I wanted to hug her right there,
But she knows I love her.
Sheíd my friend.
I just hope that this doesnít happen,
To her ever again,
Because it is just too much at once.
How can keep pulling Xena back
To this side,
When her past wonít let her go?
I hope that time,
Will heal her wounds,
So she will be able to help herself,
Alone.
Because that will help her healing,
More than I ever can.

 

CANíT LIVE WITHOUT YOU
Xena Torres
ruffell@home.com

You taught me to be strong.
You taught me when to fight and when to talk.
You taught me not to kill.
But how can I follow your teachings,
When youíve gone away?
You taught me inner strength.
You taught me peace and faith.
You taught me to love.
But how can I follow your teachings,
When youíve gone away?
Xena, how could you leave me?
I know I have more to learn.
How can I live without you?
Gabrielle, how could you leave me?
I know I have more to learn.
How can I live without you?
My heart is empty without you.
I canít think.
I canít write.
All I can see,
Is how you were taken from me.
My heart is empty without you.
I canít fight.
I canít feel.
All I can see,
Is how you were taken from me.
Iím alone, so alone,
And Iím helpless, so helpless.
I donít know how to save you,
And how can I bring you home?
Iím alone, so alone,
And Iím helpless, so helpless.
I donít know how to save you,
And how can I bring you home?
Youíre gone!
What can I do now?
Be a bard?
Lead the Amazons?
How can I, if youíre not by my side?
Youíre gone!
What can I do now?
Be a hero?
Help the helpless?
How can I, if youíre not by my side?
How can I live without you?
Youíre my older sister.
You took me under your wing,
And helped me.
You showed me the world
And taught me about life.
I need you.
How can I live without you?
Youíre the sister Iíve always wanted.
You kept me good, you kept me sane,
And helped me find myself.
You showed my the beauty of life,
And taught me to enjoy it.
I need you.
I know there are two kinds of tears:
Tears for those that leave you;
And tears for those you never let go.
And youíll always be in my heart,
Because I know you walk with me.
I know that you can hear my thoughts
And know that I love you.
I know that weíll be together again,
And I know youíll always be in my heart,
Because I know you walk with me.
No!
I wonít let you go!
Iíll find a way to bring you back,
Bring you back to me.
No!
I wonít let you go!
Iíll find a way to bring you back,
Bring you back to me.
Thank the Gods youíre back!!
Thank the Gods youíre back!!
Now we will travel to new adventures,
Together.
Youíll help me understand why people
Do what they do.
Iíll keep this smile on my face,
Because I have you back!
Now we will fight against evil,
Together.
Youíll help me control my anger,
My rage, my dark side.
Iíll keep this smile on my face,
Because I have you back!

Xena,

Gabrielle,

Please donít leave me again,
Because we were meant to be together,
Forever.


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